Sept. 11th Numbness
- By Tracy Ames
- Published September 11, 2010
Tracy Ames
Mrs. Ames is an international bestselling author of interracial erotic fiction and a former columnist for several newsletters and magazines.
A native of the San Francisco Bay Area, Tracy currently split time between CT & New York City with her husband, children and a host of pets.
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It's Sept 11th and I thought about doing a tribute to all friends and family still in uniform but I can't. After talking to my AF buddies, it just didn't feel right. In fact many of them sidestepped the memorial services and opted to spend time with their families. Even my brothers and sisters are staying home!
Funny, but none of us know why this year feels different. Of course we had a sob fest early this morning but now it feels numb. Not good, not bad, just numb to the point of concern. We've forgotten, how could we? But what's changed?
I'd be less concerned if every single one of us didn't have the same numbness. Who knows what's happened. I'm throwing up my hands, saying a heartfelt thank you, and hoping the numbness wears off.
To all service members, Thank You!
Funny, but none of us know why this year feels different. Of course we had a sob fest early this morning but now it feels numb. Not good, not bad, just numb to the point of concern. We've forgotten, how could we? But what's changed?
I'd be less concerned if every single one of us didn't have the same numbness. Who knows what's happened. I'm throwing up my hands, saying a heartfelt thank you, and hoping the numbness wears off.
To all service members, Thank You!
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5 Responses to "Sept. 11th Numbness" 
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said this on 11 Sep 2010 2:35:42 PM CDT
Well I don't think that's anyone has forgoten. I saw that whole thing from across the river here in NJ. We had an amazing view of the WoldTrade Center from where I used to work back then. I still remember everthing vividly and will probably never forget. I had a few friends who were injured but fortunatley no one I knew was killed. But how can the famliles of the vitcims or any of us really heal if every single year we keep constantly dredging up the events of that day. If every year we keep reliving the pain and the tragedy of it all we will never have any kind of real healing ever take place? I think maybe thats why it seem different this year. People are steping back a little or it just gets to be too much.
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said this on 11 Sep 2010 5:24:44 PM CDT
Crystal, you're right. As soon as we pack everything down inside here it comes again. It's a constant packing, unpacking, repacking. Strictly speaking for my gang, it's tough. There comes a point where you just want to be okay. You have give thanks and move on.
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said this on 11 Sep 2010 6:41:47 PM CDT
Yeah it's the same for my friends. It's too much to have to deal with reliving what happened to them every year and be reminded of freinds and co wokers who where killed. Few of them decided not to make a trip to ground zero this year and just enjy being with theirv family. It's like you said there comed a point were you have to move on for you own sanity.
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said this on 12 Sep 2010 4:05:31 PM CDT
This year it was quite numb. I had to break the news of what was happening to my best friend who's dad died that day in the towers. Every year we go to ground zero. But Friday she called and said "Rece not this year we have to be different" and it was we cooked, and spent the day with family and friends. And the healing finally began.
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said this on 13 Sep 2010 2:27:07 AM CDT
Sherece,
I know maybe the healing has finally started (I can’t believe it’s been 9 years) but this year has been different. Some say it has been over shadowed with the proposed building of the mosque, the “burning” of the Koran, etc. but maybe with the healing we realized that healing does not have to be a showcase but something private |